MY HUGS..(hugs&kisses)

Jehan Mua? Hmmmm.. an ordinary girl who brings extraordinary joy to the lives of many

people.. (that includes my life too..) she is exceptionally SWEET and LOVING.. she gives a smile

to everyone she meets.. (and mind you.. her smile is very captivating.. you can see her kind

soul and her innocence with her smile..)

She is "jeh" to many of her friends but i call her "KISSES".. ksi nga MUA ang last name and

somehow this term of endearment fits her personality.. (she calls me HUGS in return)

I don't remember how we happened to meet each other or how we actually got close..

naaalala ko lang she was the most silent sa group namen during our first meeting and i was the

noisiest..i tot we can never be close because were completely opposite.. pero i was very wrong...

during our OR exposure, si Kisses at ako partners na sa kalokohan.. (umpisa lang tahimik, mas

maingay pa pala sa akin..hehe..) i also learned we have a lot of things in common din pala(she

can attest to that..)

we were strangers at one point and we can be good friends in time..(naks.!) sa group namen, cya

at si Dang ang mga sisters ko..

cguro dahil na rin pareho kame makukulit.. mdme tlga kame personalities in common ni jEh..

pareho kame malambing..preho mgulo(hehe..).. yun lang super kikay and super sassy c Kisses

compared to me(iL addres her Kisses kasi mgagalit xa pag ndi..)

we both love Milo and sweets.. we love fooling around.. we love Kids..we love

MUSIC..bastadame things in common..

we may hav our differences but these differences are the reasons why we are binded as friends..

(corny man..)

she is so icp bata (murag lage ako..).. she's a good grupm8.. very responsible.. and she brings life

to our group (wel next lang kay LUCS..wag mag angal, kay star na jud natin c LUCS.)

anu pa ba? you'll be amazed with her food art..uhmm..daw CHEF ang presentation..

Recently, we had a tampuhan.. both of us cried.. we were not talking to each other for almost

the whole day.. super grabe talaga ang emotional impact nito sa akin.. ksi nga palangga nako c

KISSES.. hay.. I never thought that the absence of our conversations, of her smile would make

my heart ache.. super sad..hay.. kaya yung gabi nagkabati din kme agad.. cguro this only proves

na close na kame kasi we have something to fight over with.. pero etong away namen made us

closer.. ay di daw pala toh away.. misunderstanding lang..hehe..

now we are super ok.. super close nga uli eh..

basta KIsses, sory if nsktan kita ha..

well anyway, lets forget about it nalang..

i want you to know how happy i am to hav you 4 a fren.. basta it feels great to hav someone like

you in my life..(super lake na ng atay mo..hehe..)i will never ever fail to thank God for giving

me a friend in you..

yun lang bah? hmm..

ah.. tma.. i need not to mention her looks. ksi obviously she is PRETTY..

pero sa mga nkakagusto kay Kisses.. stop dreaming nah.. may asawa na daw eto eh.. bsta Kisses

stay focus while staying in love..

if ever you need a fren, nandito lang ako.. hanapan kita ng fren.. joke..i can be your fren

anytime..

I am happy to have you as my friend but I'm prouder to think we are sisters at heart..

Lovelots,

HUGS

favorite person, favorite time, and favorite moment

Confident Vs. Conceited


If I have a confidence and feel good about myself, would you think that I am conceited? Better think twice and hear something from me.

What I know is there is a huge difference between being confident and being conceited. Having a confidence means recognizing your worth and taking pride in who you are and in the things that you do. This is NOT to be confused with walking around with your chin higher than your forehead (buti kung bagay), bragging about how perfect you are (nobody is perfect, right?) or expecting other people to worship you or the ground you walk on. (That’s being conceited, mga feelers gud).

Confidence isn’t about proving to others how great you are; it’s more about how you feel inside about yourself. Kung maganda ka naman talaga. Maganda ka talaga. You don’t need to apply tons of foundation just to feel good about yourself. And its not abut physical lang naman eh. Its more of the attitude. The compositions of sex appeal are confidence (how we carry ourselves) and attitude.

Anyway, I don’t really care about what people will say. I am ME. I love being me. My boyfriend loves me. So, there’s nothing to bother to.

feeler ka

My boyfriend is smarter than you!

mayabang ka?

I GOT IRRITATED SA MGA TAONG MAYAYABANG TODAY..

hmm, I should say kahapon pa. Naglipana na ang mga taong mayayabang. Daw matalino, if i know nagluwa na

ang mga mata nila sa kakacheat para makapasa. A lot of people in school are acting like nerds. duh. if only

evaluation sheet "should" be placed on the forehead wala na siguro magyayabang. makainis kasi. hehe.. la lang..

BABALA:

magkaiba ang informal grammar sa MALI.

KOWTS ni Bob Ong

** Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.
** Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.
** Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba.
** Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.
** Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.
** Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.
** Kung maghihintay ka nang ng lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.
.** Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang
.** Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa
.** Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang

GRADO

“To those I sked to see me, please do as instructed.”
-level chair

It’s been a long day. It was the longest day I’ve ever waited in my entire school life. Why? Because am not sure about my final grade. I was really shaking so bad and I could not hang on a minute longer. I’ve learned that when you are sure of a thing, you will surely get a cold clammy skin and a bad stomach upset. LOL.

When my grade slip was hand over me, my friends was so excited till they unfold the slip. Thank God, I passed.

I would like to thank my Ces for all the encouragement, understanding and comforts you have given me.


“by, salamat ha? You’re the best.”

BLUER THAN BLUE

Regardless of how hard you try to keep your emotions in check, they can get the best of you. (char) Yes, it’s true that growing up is an emotional time. Kaya nga may mga EMO eh. Are you one of those? Me? I guess so. Haha. Emotional stress we encounter can be more than just mood swings. Sometimes it becomes more serious and you need more than just yourself to deal with. I am lucky to have someone that has a capacity to deal with my emote-times. Someone who patiently listen and gives comfort. During the lowest point of my life, my best friend-boyfriend is always there. Hindi sya nawawala. Though sometimes I am pushing him away he never gives up. Bongga. I so love him for not letting me go through this alone.


Signs of Depression:

Feeling sad or hopeless
Loss of interest in most of daily activities
Weight gain or weight loss
Sleeping to much or not enough
Grades in school may drop
Turning to drugs and alcohol
Feeling tired all the time
Lack of motivation
Feeling guilty for no real reason
Thinking often about death
Feeling anxious or worried

I manifest:

Feeling sad/hopeless
Loss of interest in activities
Weight gain? I often eat large amount of food when I am depress. (If my boyfriend could read this. He would surely disagree. And guess why).
My grades in school dropped
Engaged in addiction? Yah, my bf is my greatest addiction. LOL.
I often think about death. Needless to say, I been into suicidal attempt how many times. Suicidal ideation is common to me.
Feeling tired most of the time. “I am sick of this life!”
Feeling guilty without any reason

cheating

We can rationalize it in our heads as guidance or help but cheating is just that: it’s cheating, no matter how much you try to justify it. If you have any doubt in your head at any time, even the smallest inkling of guilt creeping up from pit of your stomach, then chances are doing something you shouldn’t be doing.


Lessons learned the hard way. Yah, I learned my lesson the hardest way. We were checking our quiz papers after the hemorrhagic quiz was given. Fortunately, I was able to answer naman (higher than I expect). Back to the checking issue, my classmate told me “buhay-buhay lang”. At first, I was wondering “what does than mean?” I asked myself. Then, I got his point na. As checking’s going on, I saw 3 numbers left unanswered then the sinful act happened. I provided answers to the spaces left. I was guilty then knowing that it’s a form of cheating or more than just cheating ‘coz its manipulation. My classmate also manipulated the 3 items on my paper.

The next class, my teacher call our attention regarding manipulation issue. He discovered it or someone told him. I was shaking then & I can’t concentrate to the things I am doing.
During the confrontation, I couldn’t look straight to his eyes. When our teacher told us about the issue, we admit it. When he told us about his feeling (he’s not mad, he’s just hurt) I felt so guilty. He’s so kind, he doesn’t deserve to have student like us.

The following days, I was really depressed. It’s not that am sad only because of the consequences of the action that we did but because I’ve hurt somebody.

“SIR, I AM SORRY. SORRY IF I CAUSED YOU PAIN. SORRY I IF LEARNED MY LESSON THE HARD WAY.”

PRIDE storm..

No one has ever choked to death by swallowing their pride.

I and my boyfriend had a big fight that led to split up. (Get used to that molly; they all use it).

I am a strong person but I can’t figure out how pain is putting me down. NATURAL! Mahal ko gud’yun and it’s not easy to be living without him. He’s the center of my world and so, of course, when he wasn’t part of it anymore I felt TORN apart. (I may sound like a stupid ass but I really do)

During our 27th monthsarry (October 1, 2008 I discovered a lot of things concerning honesty. (Honesty is a huge part of a relationship. right?) Because of that, several issues of the past dig up. The unfinished business screw up the current “issues” we are having. Nagkatambak-tambak na and I find it hard to settle it. (Me myself and I. yah, ako lang). My boyfriend lost his appetite in patching things up because of someone’s existence. (ops, am not entertaining anybody. Kasalanan ko ba?*wink*)

After staying out late at night for crying and rationalization over what has happened, I’ve decided to evade him. (No communication) because I want him to learn some lesson na matagal na nyang dapat na-learn. (Too personal to elaborate)

It was rainy evening when out of anger my feet brought me to where he is. Fortunately, he’s there. It was not a hallucination). I stand at his back and about to explode. I found my hands around his neck when all I want is to hug him. Huhu. My heart is breaking seeing that he looks like a sad puppy. Matigas kasi ang uloba. I went out crying and an inch to breakdown. I send a message telling him to go out the net café. (Net café? Isn’t PDA? Public Display of Anger). Hehe.. Nung lumabas na sya, I punched his torso and I said “magbago ka naman kasi.. di ko na kaya..” I am aware of other species existence but I didn’t care ‘coz they know nothing about the things going inside us. My boyfriend hugged me and so I hugged him too.

WE HUGGED. WE KISSED. WE ATE (we went to our favorite restaurant).
The aftermath is WE END UP TOGETHER.

holding grudges..

throughout life, people will hurt you..
many times they will be the people who are closest to you..family, friends, lovers..
forgiveness is tough though life is too short for grudges.. It seems so much easier to be angry at a person or to keep feelings inside and continue on as if nothing has happened..

either way, you are hurting and your relationship is going to be affected somehow..

not everyone is good at confronting their feelings..
sometimes, it may be easier to right a letter instead of talking but whichever way you choose to deal with your feelings, make sure you deal with it.. *sigh*

reqz ni by..

(i and by's early lakwatsa)..

*sigh* we did crazy thing together unknowingly..
one day..
WE..
we went to mall as early as 9:00 am just to buy pen and other school supplies he'll be needing for his requirements in school..
we made the requirements together cos he asked for help.. ( my boyfriend hates to write)..
we ate BBQ and pastil late in UMEX(our school canteen)..
and lastly, hitting each others forehead whenever we can see a BAO.. haha..
eto pa pala.. grabe tawa namin mga cartoons reactions.. hehe..
la lang.. i just soo love the day.. one perfect day.. haha..

hapi tots..

(taken from Friendster Blog, posted on July 1..), 2008, i forgot kc tong password)

Its our Second Anniversary today.. July 1, 2008.. It feels good right?.. Having someone who you love most loves you also.. Abot gud kami ng Year 2.. =) I can say that MAHAL na MAHAL ko ang asawakoh, babykoh, partnerkoh, kili2koh at higit sa lahat.. BESTPWEN ko..=) Lam nyo ba, dami nangyari sa min trials these past two years and you know what?.. We always remain together kasi we really treasure everything that we have.. We both are really contented on what we are. what we have and what we will have.. =) Lam nyo 1 good sa min 2 ng BESTPWEN ko?.. Is obviously we treat each other as a real bestfriends.. Not boyfriends/girlfriends na pangdisplay2 lang.. Pero sa min iba yung friendship namin na to the max talaga na hindi na mareach kahit cno man.. TODO na gud.. =) basta dami ako pwede makwento sa inyo.. MAHAL NA MAHAL ko tlga asawakoh.. as in.. kahit na sino, d ko siya pagpalit.. Kasi siya ang the best and lam nyo ba na siya ang nagpapakumpleto ng buhay ko?.. hmM?.. inggit kau sa min noh?.. hehehe.... We know how to share love, we know how to give love, we know how to treasure love, we know how to forgive in the name of love.. Corny ba?.. PWEH.. CHE.. HMP.. Paki nyo?.. Masarap maging corny.. eh di wag nyo to basahin.. hehehe.. =) IDOREALLY LOVE MY BABY.. cya all for the next episode.. hehehe.. gutom na kami, eat kami sa labas..